Sometimes, when people talk about listening to christian radio stations or reading uber-devotional-type books or start saying things about "the Lord," I just start to cringe. I think I've been going through this strange balancing act of being genuine in my love for God and being super cautious/wary of religiosity type things. I think I generally tend to take people who lack in creatively expressing their thoughts about God as being insincere. And that tends to make me angry. But today I was thinking, "Why should I get angry about that? Sometimes, people can say cheesy things and genuinely mean them." It made me think that anger or cynicism is just another layer that distracts us from God. Its sort of like stress. When things start piling up, you start to stress about each little thing and it takes your mind off of what you are really trying to get done.
Random blopping of words/thoughts: I literally have been forgetting what day it is all day today and yesterday! I keep thinking "Oh, lovely! It's Thursday!" or "Oh wow, its Monday. wah wah wah..." But no, it is Tuesday. I feel like I need a Gandalf-like voice over telling me "It is June the 28th, in the year 2011" but alas, I am short one Gandalf.
Internship: Isn't this lovely structure?! Bleh, oh well. So, I am in my first official internship at a really great organization! I go through very mixed feelings about my time there. Part of me wants more responsibility and part of me feels like I can't handle the small amount of responsibility they've given me so far. Its quite the conundrum. I also have been ridiculously hyposocial and I want to rip out the socially malfunctioning part of my brain and douse it in a big vat of extroversion juice. I am like two different people at school and at my internship: I am fairly calm about school papers and such but when it comes to performing in front of supervisors and talking to others in a professional yet friendly setting, I flounder. Big time. I'm going right back through that social anxiety stuff of getting light-headed and my voice getting high pitched and randomly coughing for no reason just because my body gets so tense and needs to do SOMETHING for goodness sake! Run, run, run away sentence structure. I'm tired and just feeling a tinge unhealthy as of late. Thats probably not helping things. I feel quite whiney.
Dustin is agood spectacular husband. I know God sewed little pieces of holy matrimony thread through our souls for a reason. Dustin is encouraging and supportive and a good listener and so kind and so hot. :)
Moths: Can the world just be done with bugs who flap, flap, flap their wings in your face at nighttime and come in through your window unit air conditioner to terrorize your sleep? Window units are classy, don't hate.
And thus, I conclude my dexterous mind-tongue and bid you blogland a fair and peaceful journey through the deep dark of night.
Random blopping of words/thoughts: I literally have been forgetting what day it is all day today and yesterday! I keep thinking "Oh, lovely! It's Thursday!" or "Oh wow, its Monday. wah wah wah..." But no, it is Tuesday. I feel like I need a Gandalf-like voice over telling me "It is June the 28th, in the year 2011" but alas, I am short one Gandalf.
Internship: Isn't this lovely structure?! Bleh, oh well. So, I am in my first official internship at a really great organization! I go through very mixed feelings about my time there. Part of me wants more responsibility and part of me feels like I can't handle the small amount of responsibility they've given me so far. Its quite the conundrum. I also have been ridiculously hyposocial and I want to rip out the socially malfunctioning part of my brain and douse it in a big vat of extroversion juice. I am like two different people at school and at my internship: I am fairly calm about school papers and such but when it comes to performing in front of supervisors and talking to others in a professional yet friendly setting, I flounder. Big time. I'm going right back through that social anxiety stuff of getting light-headed and my voice getting high pitched and randomly coughing for no reason just because my body gets so tense and needs to do SOMETHING for goodness sake! Run, run, run away sentence structure. I'm tired and just feeling a tinge unhealthy as of late. Thats probably not helping things. I feel quite whiney.
Dustin is a
Moths: Can the world just be done with bugs who flap, flap, flap their wings in your face at nighttime and come in through your window unit air conditioner to terrorize your sleep? Window units are classy, don't hate.
And thus, I conclude my dexterous mind-tongue and bid you blogland a fair and peaceful journey through the deep dark of night.
